Requiem for What I Thought I Knew

YESTERDAY...

The sky was cloudy, yes,

but I could still

recall the sun

and the blue veining

that makes for a good day.

My shoes were on

the right feet

and I walked with a confidence

that gook no conscious effort.

I recognized faces

and the cadence of voice

and captured smiles

where I could

as I echoed grace.

I felt like I was really living.

I was there.

TODAY...

There is a periwinkle

angel's wing

trying to embrace me

from above.

And i can't escape

God's notice

for the blazing, ever-present

almost taunting sun's

golden glare.

I don't trust its warmth

anymore.

I stumble over my heavy heart.

I blister at the smiles

that are wan simpers

on the faces of those

who are strangers to me today.

The living is really hard,

but I am still here.